I've never doubted his sincerity, including theirs.
I really hate to be distracted except by the one I really love because he is the only person well worth my total concentration no matter when and where. And meanwhile, he is quite unwilling to distract me to cause troubles for me. So, you're willing to be distracted by him but in fact, he will never do that. Yes, the seemingly sincere men would always distract you and so annoy you. They are not really sincere because they don't care about your feeling at all but they just do whatever they think is right.
Yes, now, there are two men bothering me on QQ and they're trying to make me have a video chat with each of them. They may be considered to be persistent. Well, no, they are very stubborn and annoying. Actually, they asked me to get married with them at the first sight of seeing me, which let me suspects whether their main aim is merely marriage. I hate it. I've told them lots of times that I don't want to live abroad far away from my parents, who need my care.
They both are sincere. But have they ever respected my own thinking? Why couldn't I refuse them? They both keep bothering me by chatting to me, frightening me to log on QQ for him.
"Easy come, easy go." But I'm not quite sure if he will leave me suddenly, for the beginning was easy but the process was not. Just like them, he kept talking himself ignorant of my feeling. So that was a very common case when he typed a lot and got only "oh i see" as a reply. Gradually, I felt more and more sympathy for him because he is younger than me,like a little boy. I couldn't help trying to let him feel comfortable.
Later, he told me he had known I was not interested in his conversation but he just hung on. I told him I hadn't known he had already known I was not
interested. And he shared his stories with me thoughtfully at midnight when I just kept awake to listen for I felt something special for him. I honestly told him about that while he told me the same.
He said he didn't have any good friends and his father worked in middle east. With a sick mother and a younger brother, he knew a lot although young. He can travel all over his city alone at midnight to take photos of ghosts. He can manage his own life while he gets an illness so that he can't play basketball or badminton. However, he can play guitar. He loves classical music. He likes drawing. He is attracted by countryside scenery in China. His written English is good. And his oral English is poor like mine. But his voice is charming.
What is more, he is very sincere. When he said he didn't want me to have another best friend, I thought he was very mean. But on the contrary, if he gets another best friend, I will surely feel sad and down. Yes, we are not best friends. He loves me and I love him.
We were both afraid to get laughed at by expressing our love to each other. And it is more difficult for us because he is younger than me. Traditionally, Men love younger women, I think and he knows that. Before we spoke it out in front of each other, we had felt very painful and anxious. Luckily, we told.
Lots of people tell me love is not easy. He says it will be much better not to keep in touch with each other because we will finally not love each other any more. I say if you are always afraid to lose, you will never get.
Let me end up with his sentence: who knows.